No this entry is not about weed.

I'm here to simultaneously bitch about, and express my gratitude for, my job.  Prepare for run-on sentences.  Don't judge me I have a iPad with no keyboard.

The BAD:  it's monotonous, I have no administrative time, hours were recently expanded with no increase in staffing,  I'm WAY overtrained for my job duties, the administration sucks, we've had 3 different CEOs in as many years, the clinic administrator is about 30 years behind the times with respect to clinical roles of pharmacists, the new COO just laid off a bunch of people, they cut our benefits down to NOTHING for 6 months right after I returned from maternity leave — wait, what maternity leave?  I meant leave without pay.  I feel like my training and experience are going to waste and I'm afraid not using my clinical skills up to the degree I was trained is going to make me fall behind or get rusty.  About 15 clinicians have quit in the past 10 months, and the patients have a bad entitlement complex (OK not all of them, but wow there are a few real bad apples), and visiting home from here is a two-day one way trip that costs about $2500 for the whole family.

The GOOD:  my direct supervisor is not a micromanager, and is great to work with.  The other folks in my department, for the most part, are great.  I get to coordinate the student clinical clerkships, appy has a decent job here, and I'm getting $35k/year in tax-free student loan repayment for the next three years. 

So, in many ways its a soul-sucking work environment. But the monetary benefits are outweighing the bad... For now.  If I didn't have all the student loan debt I wouldn't care about the money.

Appy is sick of hearing me go on about it.  I keep looking at Indeed.com, etc and seeing better jobs, but I guess the grass is always greener.

so anyhow, I know people gots real problems, so I truly try to keep it in perspective.  I'm fortunate to have not just a job, but a well-paying job.  I'm thankful.  I have to keep reminding myself, then I feel like a whiny ass.